What's the next step? Who do I feel called to be with? Where am I called? What am I called to do? stress, confusion, mayhem (ok, maybe not mayhem). but I'm tired of it Lord. It's been keeping me from thinking about things that I should really be focusing on. Like You. Like why I was confused by the speaker at the last training block. Like what am I going to take away from what I've learned today. I can't get my mind out of missing people, people back at home, who I'm aching to see again, people here, who I look at from across the room and with a small ache know that I will be so incredibly homesick for them in just a few months' time. I'm tired of worrying about work, school, boiler rooms, community, and where the heck am I going to live this summer. I want to stop that for a bit. can we focus on the bigger things, things like why the session on Your kingdom thouroughly confused me, and what am I taking away from this that I will be able to talk about to my kids back home at Flood. I want to take time to just think about what I believe about You, why I'm doing this whole Christian without religion thing, and how I want You to be the center, the focus, the reason behind and the driving force to all that I do in the future, tomorrow, in the next hour. Honestly, I just want to spend time with You. Can it be just You and me, here, now?